Something has been weighing on me for a long time… There’s someone else in my life besides my husband. I get nervous when I see his car and just the sight of him walking towards me makes my heart race. I never thought I’d be in this position – but here I am.… READ THE REST
Old Woman. Ball and Chain. The Boss.
In my pre-married life, I would cringe in movies when husbands would call their wives by these names. They wouldn’t call their wives by these things to their face, at least I hope not… but then again it was just a movie.… READ THE REST
Thoughts I think to myself on a daily basis scrolling through my Facebook feed:
“Amber is posting jaw-dropping photos of the new gorgeous headboard her husband built them in his workshop from pieces of wood that he chopped down himself.… READ THE REST
What are you most afraid of?
I know many of you instantly visualized very distinctive fears; spiders, clowns, heights perhaps? You wouldn’t be far off because according to Google it’s an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.… READ THE REST
When I was young I imagined that I’d be married by 20, have kids by 22, and that my husband would be a dream. Well that timeline didn’t play out and on any given day I’d say he’s closer to a night terror that permeates my waking hours.… READ THE REST
The beginning of our relationship was a whirlwind. A whirlwind that unexpectedly turned into a tornado. First you took my breath away, then you took my self worth.
We met, and despite you recently coming out of a divorce, I fell for you.… READ THE REST
My husband knew what he was getting into before he asked me to marry him. Perhaps that’s why he took so long to decide. I am an unstoppable force. This I think is due to the fact that I was raised by a community of strong women who didn’t let anyone tell them no.… READ THE REST
The first time I saw a girl flirt with my husband I was 11. Technically he wasn’t my husband yet, but he had passed me two notes so I figured it was close enough. He was using the numbers on his calculator to make funny words.… READ THE REST
I walked into the bar with the intention of grabbing an application and when I saw you I forgot why I had came. For a split second, I forgot that I had recently left a relationship I didn’t want to be out of.… READ THE REST
There’s a common belief that as a mother, our needs are fulfilled last. Our food is always cold, we’re in a perpetual state of exhaustion, and the thank you’s for our service are few and far between. And that’s all true.… READ THE REST
Facebook is getting more and more abrasive. People will come at you for a link you share to an article that doesn’t even have your byline. I myself am not innocent. A couple weeks ago a friend of mine shared a political article I found offensive and poorly written.… READ THE REST
Two days after my 29th birthday, I boarded a plane headed for Jordan. I was burned out, discouraged and heartbroken. In a span of ten years, I had experienced several personal setbacks, that left me severely depressed. With thirty just around the corner, I decided it was time for a change.… READ THE REST
Finding girlfriends has always been a struggle for me. Go ahead and roll your eyes because all girls say it, but I truly feel it in my soul. Hear me out.
I grew up with an older brother and a little brother.… READ THE REST
My entire life, I’ve loved men. Which is why I was so disappointed when I learned that I can’t be friends with them. I’ve been resisting the truth since high school, but I waved a white flag when my marriage was at stake.… READ THE REST
I’m not sure what I expected when I walked down that aisle. Almost 3 years ago we took our vows, and we’ve been an “us” for nearly 7. In hindsight, “For better, for worse” seems a little insufficient. I think what they were going for was vague; you don’t know to be scared when you’re not sure what’s coming.… READ THE REST
I don’t know who you are, but I have dreamt about you. I still don’t know what you look like, but in my dreams I know you’re the most beautiful girl I have ever laid my eyes upon, then I wake up and you’re gone.… READ THE REST
Over the years I’ve collected a good amount of friends. I’m fairly introverted, but once people get past my resting bitch face, I think they find me to be moderately agreeable. (Or not, whatever. Like I said, I’m an introvert.)
I quickly learned though, that 36 nights (and days) of consecutive college drinking does not make a friend.… READ THE REST
Motherhood is truly my greatest joy. You get to grow another human inside your body and feel their every move as they develop and thrive. You get to hold your heart outside of your body, which has been ravaged by 30 hours of natural labor and an emergency cesarean, in my case.… READ THE REST
You have lost count of the lies. The number of times he has held you in his arms and told you that you are the only woman who truly knows him. His eyes are convincing but you know better. You’ve seen it.… READ THE REST
2016 gave birth to many things for me (& from me). The top of that list, most literally, being the birth of my third child; the sweetest little angel of a baby, Grant (whose cute cheeks have graced these virtual pages on more than one occasion).… READ THE REST