Big Brother Season 18’s Victor Arroyo III: A Letter to my Future Wife; I’m Not Ready
I don’t know who you are, but I have dreamt about you. I still don’t know what you look like, but in my dreams I know you’re the most beautiful girl I have ever laid my eyes upon, then I wake up and you’re gone. You have a glow about you that brings happiness to those around you. A smile that can, in an instant, change my mood for the better. I can get lost in your eyes like there’s something in the distance, but I can’t quite make it out; I still stare. I pass many nights alone longing that we meet. But…if I am being honest, I don’t know if I want to meet you yet.
Does that make sense? I love you with everything in my being, but I don’t want us to meet, at least not right now. I just know that I am a young, hardly famous man in this world trying to get ahead. I know I’m immature and I’m not great with my feelings. I know I wouldn’t give you the attention you need. I know I would take you for granted and risk losing you forever. I know I still need time to figure myself out before I can figure us out.
I plan on doing a lot of growing up before we meet. I want to establish myself and have financial freedom, become more patient and understanding, and give myself an opportunity to grow mentally and physically.
Also, I ask you for one favor; give me time to get comfortable with expressing emotions with you. Like Shrek, I also have layers and I want to open up to you, but I can only do that with time.
All I want from you is for you to be the loving, smart, funny and understanding woman that you are. I know you will make a great mother to our children. I will interject with the fact that our first-born son has to be named Victor Arroyo IV, but I digress. I want to be able to grow with you as a person and learn from each other.
I once heard that behind every great man is an even greater woman, and I believe that will be true.
Future wife I don’t know when we will meet, but I’ll be sure to keep an eye out.
Until then, forgive us men, because sometimes we just are not ready yet.